As you can see I have started to rebuild my blog. A lot of my poems have been re-added and I added a new section aswell.. Jokes :). I thought we all can use to laugh a little once in a while and I may not always have the mood to make a post depending on my time aswell.

Soon my blog will be ina top condition again once I have once again restored my photoshoptutorials and the lyrics too. Ofcourse my love story will be updated too some time but I am not sure how i will portrait that so I am holding the writing of that a little off yet.  Thats all for now since i’m a little tired with all the work i have allready done today on my blog. Take care all!!

A heart in a tree

If suddenly the sky got cloudy and grey
And rain would pour down on me all day

and raindrops start fall upon my head.
If lightning then flashed and thunder said,

You’re granted a wish, What will you do?
I’d close my eyes, and think of you…

Think of you and wished you where here
For us, this valentines day, to share,

our love, laughter and stories of life,
to watch you take your pocket knife,

to carve a heart in a tree,
and add the names of you and me…

D.s. feb 14 2009 03:55 am

Un corazón en un árbol – A heart in a tree translated

Si de repente el cielo nublado y gris tiene,
Y la lluvia para que sobre mí­ todo el dí­a,

Y empezar a caer las gotas de lluvia sobre mi cabeza.
Si entonces los rayos y truenos destellado dijo

Usted está concedido un deseo, ¿Qué vas a hacer?
Yo cierro los ojos, y pensar en ti …

Piense en usted y que usted desea aquí­,
Para nosotros, este dí­a de San Valentín, a compartir

Nuestro amor, risas e historias de vida,
Para ver de tomar su cuchillo de bolsillo

Para tallar un corazón en un árbol,
Y añadir los nombres de usted y yo …

Things change in time.. with time.. Not always just because… Often one has to work hard to get to a certain point… Building up things is  not always as easy… In life one builds up many aspects of life… friendships… sometimes they come and go.. others are for life… relationships… there arent many  who never had more as one relationship with someone… often you dont marry the first person you fall in love with and share your lifes forever… Career is something else we build up..  we get experience with everything we do.. SometimesI feel as I have not achieved anything.. yet when I look back I see all the battles i faught and won.. often it meant to crawl back up and start over again… I am 33 years old now and I wonder where i will be next year.. will I have achieved more? did i climbed up again? Is there gonna be another battle nearby that I have to overcome? I dont know.. neither do you whats comming at ya…  I have been at all sorts of lvls in my live.. from the bottom of the well till halfway the mountain… I never made it to the top… And you know.. it doesn’t always matter where we are at in life… what matters is most how we got there… who where there with us on our journey… because at the end of the road… what matters most is the people arround you…

Thats easy to say.. yet at the same time not so easy… When I look at my life now.. I am no where near where I want to be… I dont know if i am ever gone be there.. life gives and takes.. and it is for us to take it up or not whats been offered…

I think I have finally reached a lvl in my life where i know excactly what I want… I want to be home… and share my life with the man I love and take care of our children.. Nothing fancy.. just a quiet nice family life… I dont need to be rich or famous… I dont need to have a blooming career and be a top bussines person… I just want to be happy and that doesnt take much.. yet.. to achieve that what i call not much.. seems impossible…  sighs…

que sera sera..
whatever will be will be..
the futures not ours to see..
que sera sera..

Hugs ela

I discovered Ebay…

ahuh, I did. And now the Ebay fever had hit me, I wat to sell things too! In the last few weeks I have been looking arround my house and putting the things aside that I really can not use anymore but that are still in great condition. Clothes from my daughter who have gotten too small and only have been worn once or twice, even clothes from me that I didnt really liked after all.

I also discovered i have a limited edition hallmark hazy days collectible. Only 5000 where made and mine is numbered 1268. Does that mean I actualy have something thats worth something decent? You understand what this means? It means that I have to go google and find outif they are actualy worth something. I remember exactly how I got it.

I was working in a big warehouse downtown of a cute lil city. Once every year they had a great sale for the people who worked there. All sorts of things where being sold lottery way. which means we all went arround looking at the things we wanted to buy. Then we all got as many numbers as items where written down. Each lot costed 1 euro. Then the numbers where being called.. if your number was called you would get to go get one of the items you wanted.. If someone else wanted the same and had his/her number picked before you, too bad.. then you simply had to get something else or nothing. Ofcourse as lucky as I am my numbers came at the end and there wasnt anything left that I wanted really. But these things where really cheap now and some normally costed up to 100 euros. So I simply picked some things that where cute and I could use somehow or make someone else happy with. At the end of this lottery there was one last raffle. All tickets went in a hat and 3 where picked. Three numbers where picked and three people went home with free tickets to the coolest circus in the Netherlands. Quite expensive tickets aswell may i add.. However.. again I wasnt so lucky to go home with them. I did go home with this hallmark limited edition collectible lazy days some little things for my little girl a few gifts for some other people and only a few euros lighter.

Thats how I got that Hallmark limited edition collectible. I dont know if I am going to sell it, but its just standing arround and I dont really have anything with it, its cute but… I am a fairy/elf kinda person 🙂

Now on to the next thing, Guinea pigs, I dont have anythingwith those either.. except, I bought the cutest lil pink baby guinea pigs ever! No they are not real, they are not even for me but for two wonderful girls who i am sure will love these guinea pigs. They are beanie babies by the way. See I do love cute things. just not for me to keep 🙂 I rather make other people happy with cute little things 🙂

Well so much for today! Till next time!

Let the clouds carry my love to you,
As they drift to the end of my horizon,
beyond where i can see…

Let the sun touch you like my love does,
Whenever it comes up in the morning,
Throughout the day till the darkness falls…

Let the stars shine like my love for you,
When they light up the dark nights to come,
Brighter than a candle can…

Let the rain pour your sorrows away,
Like my love does if we where together,
Into the sewers far below the streets…

Let the wind blow my love your way,
As it drifts on a cloud to the end of my horizon,
Where u are waiting for me.

D.S. november 6th 2005, 2:30 am