I have been streaming for a little over a year now and I love doing it. My channel, my community, gave me a place to relax and to let go. Though in the last few weeks this has changed. It’s about 4 weeks now that I am dealing with a lot of connection issues. I have called and complained to my isp, done a lot of problem-solving which I don’t really know if that solved anything at all.

My isp has sent out a technician. They checked when I was offline and stated they couldn’t find anything strange and only have seen 2 dips. in the last few weeks at my address. Then a letter from the abuse- team came in stating I was portscanning and ddossing. As an old-school and long-time gamer of course I have heard of ddossing. Portscanning I had to look up. Another thing that had gotten my attention was the creation of player names in Apex Legends (the game I play and stream a lot) that are meant to copy my player name.

This lead to me thoroughly scanning all my equipment for viruses, botnets, trojans, and all what more and nothing has been found. Someone came to my aid and it turns out some fishy stuff has been going on, to put it simply. I was the victim of cyberattacks. Something that happens to more streamers and especially female streamers. I thought my problems were solved and went back to streaming.

I had a few (4) fantastic days with a lot of support from my community and friends and then yesterday the disconnects appeared again. I had 5 disconnects yesterday where my whole internet failed me and my stream and game were interrupted over and over again. I’m at the end of my wits now and I am sincerely considering giving up streaming. I don’t have the energy for this with everything else I am dealing with already. I didn’t need more problems.

My isp returned to me that they did everything they possibly could to help me. I don’t fully agree with this and I’m actually rather upset with them that I don’t get more help. I have been a customer with them for over 16 years and never had I had any complaints about me abusing the internet for whatever malicious things. I have always paid my bills in time too. The last words about this have not been said yet I am running out of energy. This might be the end of my Twitch adventure.

Update: So this was not the end of my twitch adventure. I found out what was going and took care of things so that it wouldnt happen again.

A few days ago I did an unboxing stream on my twitch channel. It was the first of a live stream that’s related to my crafting. I am planning to start doing crafting streams once I have my Elgato and a new webcam.

What did I unbox? I unboxed Pergamano crafting supplies. This was my Christmas gift of 2020 from a very sweet and thoughtful man. After he learned I had lost my crafting supplies a long time ago, he realized how much this has meant to me he told me that he wanted to replace these materials and tools for me. So he sends me on a shopping-spree online (since we have a lock-down and everything is closed) and I came home with like 500 euros worth of crafting supplies!

Finally delivered after a bunch of delays due to Brexit, covid, and out of stock of certain items. So when these items finally arrived I did an unboxing stream. Now I finally can get back into my crafting again! I appreciate this so much! <3

Perhaps now my last post also makes more sense after you read this one if you had not understood it yet, altho there’s a lot more meaning in it than just a replacement of my crafting tools. Pergamano crafting has been so soothing and calming for me. I can make beautiful things with it and I enjoy the time spend while crafting.

I hope to see you in one of my streams someday when I’m crafting (or gaming). My stream channel is at twitch.tv/lunatearz

Hugs to all and Much love and thanks to Ali!