When you have been hurt too much, too often, too deep, you can get serious issues with trust. I don’t let my guard down easily even with people I have known my whole life I’m on guard most of the time. Still it happens just right when you least expect it you get hurt again, and right then is when the effect comes to the surface as well. Other pain that I have seen coming I could hide most of it and give it a place because there was time for that.Some of that pain I have shared with others, often people that I don’t really know in real life. That is easier, they won’t judge you like people who know you, they don’t know all your failures, mistakes and bad decisions, that also means they can’t tell you always the cold hard truth about yourself that would hurt so much even when you already know it. Often they just tell you what you need to hear at that time because of the compassion the other people have. Or maybe because they just help you see it from a different perspective. I think I’ll keep it at that for now. got off my chest again what was on it.. perhaps, maybe it is for use of someone to help them through something. Understanding is part of healing…