Impressed, or not?
Someone asked me the other day who else has been impressing me and honestly I didn’t know how to answer that.
Throughout my life, there have been a few people who have tried to impress me, and for a short time, they have. Though when that followed up with major disappointments and lies I wasn’t so impressed anymore. I also think when I was younger it may have been a lot easier to impress me than today. I have a lot more patience today.
I don’t like surprises I always say. Well, that’s not entirely true. I do like surprises but again when they are being held against me up to a point where you can call it abuse, you might understand why surprises scare me. So I prefer no surprises, I like to feel safe and secure. This brings up my fears again that take hold of my life. It saddens me and makes me wonder if I’m missing out on much in life. Maybe it is time to break that cycle. I don’t know.
So what impresses me? I am impressed by genuine, character, kindness, generosity, honesty, loyalty, and intellect. Details matter. Spoil me with your time, attention, effort, and presence. Enthusiasm, humor, and have a backbone. Build me up, support, and care. But most of all be genuine. Things that would impress me arent done solely to impress me.
It’s really that simple. Or maybe not. When and if I am impressed I won’t quickly show it. Perhaps that’s demotivating but there is a difference between bragging, showing off, and impressing, and I’m only truly impressed when whatever it is that impresses me, is genuine. Genuinity is important to me. Be real. I am real too.. Actions and time will show how genuine a person is. And even tho they say a Gemini does not have patience, here is something you can learn about me. I do have certain patience.
This one question lead to another for me. How do I impress other people? I find that an even harder question to answer. I don’t really like trying to impress other people purposefully. I guess if I cant impress people by who I am then what is the use of impressing people really? So who am I that should impress someone?
I am someone who doesn’t easily give up on something I have set my mind on. If I want something I will work for it and do what I can and need, to reach that goal. No, not at all costs but I know that you can not have it all and choices need to be made. So I try to make my choices carefully even tho I am a spontaneous person who follows her heart. I have a good sense of humor and love to laugh.
I am very loyal to an extend and protective of those I care about. I’m very kind and have a big heart but if you take my kindness for gullibility you are in for a big surprise. Don’t make the mistake to underestimate my intelligence. Play games with me and I may play along for a little while if I like you enough but in the long run, you lose my attention and interest. I need (re)assurance and sometimes lots of it. I am often an open book; just ask me what you want to know about me and you likely get a direct and honest answer.
I can’t stand unjust and always try to do what’s right. I raised my children the same way. As judgemental and opinionated I might be I do like to respect other people’s opinions even when I dont aggree with it. I stand up for what I believe in and will speak out even when I am a minority I will.
I like to take care of myself and I am very independent altho I don’t mind being spoiled and pampered once I feel safe and secure with the person who does. Time and effort would be the safest way to go about with me to reach that point. I do not like asking for help but when I do rest assure that I either like you a lot or swallowed a lot of my pride and fears, or all of the before. Due to my traumas, there are a lot more things about me that are part of me whether I like it or not. I have C-PTSD and with that comes a lot of other issues attached. Not impressed? IDC because I am not trying to impress.
The only competition I have is me. There is no better me then me. <3
