Life is short…
Life is short even when you think you have a lifetime ahead of you when you are young, its still short. The sad part is we don’t really realize it untill we are halfway our lifes usually. And I said really realize it because most ppl know life is short the realisation of what that exactly means comes a lot later.
The older we get the more that realization becomes more focussed until we finally reach that point where its a clear understanding that our time has come. Some don’t have that moment that they reached that clear understanding because they have gone from us suddenly and without warning.
However, how it ends does not matter as much. What matters is what we have done with the time we have been given to us. Of course, like most of us, I too have things in my life I regret I have done or said because of the consequences.
My biggest regret Is that I have (and still do) lived most my life in fear and with fears caused mainly by other people who left me to believe I was worthless, unloved, unimportant, etc, etc.. I still feel this way. To sum up some of the fears, fears of abandonment, fear of rejection, fear of people, fear that I’m not good enough, fear of trusting people and the list goes on. Mainly I have fear of people and everything they can do to other people that will hurt them emotionally because they did do all that to me once too many.
Healing takes time. A lot of time and truth is I will never fully heal emotionally because simply put certain experiences I will never have in my life to teach me them. I wish I had realized a lot earlier how short life really is, then maybe I would have found the courage to go on a healing path a lot sooner instead of sitting here alone by myself.
I wanted to hate people because of how they have hurt me and what they have done to me but this I already knew long ago, life is short, too short to waste it on hate. So I keep trying to see the beauty of life and holding on to, to what, I honestly don’t know right now what I am holding on to… sighs
Whatever you do, don’t let fear keep you from trying, I have always kept trying… Take care of yourself as good as you can in whatever circumstance, sometimes you will be able to take better care of yourself then at other times, that’s okay. You do not always have to be ok. It is ok not to be ok.
