A whole lot of thoughts,
I am filled with thoughts and thoughts and more thoughts and I have no idea where the start or the end is. Whenever one thought leaves another new one pops in like on a high way full of traffic.
Anxiety pops up too in the mids of it and then once in a while a panic attack to finish it off. Where once I found the peace I find emptiness. It’s just another beating down on my heart which feels pretty raw and runs over on that same high way I mentioned before with everything I have been going through since a month n a half almost now. Not to forget the old stuff I’m still dealing with as well.
I’m trying to shut it off and stay in the here and now but it’s hard. I really do need a break something to look forward to. Summer is so far away and this last vacation did not really have the weather to get me going anywhere. Besides the lack of energy I’m having I guess I need to let it settle down a little first. Besides, that break won’t be really stress-free since I can not just do whatever I want for a little. My daughter and my dog I am going to have to take with me. cause they can’t take care of themselves.
On top of that, I wouldn’t really feel happy without them anyway. I’d worry about them then instead and still won’t be able to relax. sighs.
