My Fears
I’m scared, of people. This is my number one fear. Why am I scared of people? because everyone I have loved and cared for and trusted has either betrayed me, lied to me, backstabbed me, cheated on me or abused me.
People who where suposed to be there for you through your life wherent there when I needed them and if they where around I couldnt trust them.
I am at a point now where I simply can not put myself to trust anyone anymore and that is terrifying. I don’t know how to describe it in any other way but litterally terrifying me.
It has taken me to a point now where I don’t believe anything anyone says anymore. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I am scared and I seriously could use a friend. But there is none, no one I can trust or let my guard down with anymore.
Im trying so hard but I’m losing this battle. It’s too much for me alone and most of the peopel I have reached out to have let me down just as well….
Should I just.. Give up? Im so tired…
