Dealing with the past, present and the future.. Part 2
A few months ago I wrote about the issues I am dealing with, My experiences with the Sinai Center and diagnose and advice for the therapy they suggesting to me.
I am not there yet. But I have finally read my diagnose on paper. I have been at the Sinai Center for my two trial days to see if the Therapy (Linehan) is what I need right now. Getting the results of their research on paper has been quite a hassle and I am far from satisfied with how things went at Sinai Center. However after those two tryout days again I had another meeting to discuss the outcome. All (therapist and myself) had come to the conclusion that Linehan might be a little to tough for me at this point. So they came with something else. Its more a course where I learn to establish my emotions and is called Vroeger en verder, I don’t know if there’s an English name for this course but translated it would be; earlier and more.
I was promised to hear soon when I could enroll into this course and get started to work with/on myself. Within 2 weeks after that meeting I got that phone call and I was told the course would start in September.. I was shocked. It was may at that time and having to wait another half year was just ridiculous. In September I will be a year a client at Sinai center and NOTHING really has been done with me yet other then getting a diagnose and pointing out what direction my therapy goes. The family therapists was able to speed things up a little. I was really glad for that.
Finally end of June I got a phone call that I could come in for the take in meeting for the course where they would get to know more about me (say what??? What have I been doing there all these meetings what lead to this diagnose I got? Or actually I wonder what THEY have been doing). I thought I had all really been forwarded to them and all that was needed was a short meeting/introduction and things could go. But there was more. during that meeting they also would conclude if I would be accepted by them for that course…. And another thing that got me off guard, I thought I was all ready accepted and in and signed up for it. Well this meant, I wasn’t. There was only 1 day that both of us where available for a meeting and 2 times. I had to miss the yearly school party of my daughter for it so I heard not even a week before the event. I had to let things sink in, arrange someone to be with my daughter to take my place or at least pick her up after school because I was not sure if I would be back in time for that. I promised them to call back the next day to set the time and date.
The very next day I had taken care of things and called them back only to find out I could not reach them because this person was sick. I should try it 3 days later then she expected to be back at work. So I called back that Friday ( that was three days later) the person who normally answered the phone was sick and I talked with someone who did not even know that the person she had been trying to forward phone calls to was most likely still sick because she did not answered any calls the whole day all ready neither had she answered any mails. Not her fault cause she had not been informed properly I guess. Anyhow no appointment still. and that was on Friday. My appointment, or at least the one I had been trying to make was supposed to be on Monday. I had no choice then to call back on Monday morning so I wouldn’t go there for nothing. Again the person I needed to speak with did not answered her phone but the receptionist checked the agenda and thank goodness my appointment was finally written down. ( I had left two messages to let them know that the day and time was good for me and that I would come.) That is all with all a whole lot of extra stress that I have to deal with again that should not have been. I promised myself that if they decided to not let me go to this course that I would be done with Sinai. Almost one year would have been wasted with them in that case and that would be more then I wanted.
The meeting that afternoon went smooth. I was a nervous wreck but oh well. They promised me to call me back before the end of the week ( I would go on vacation Friday evening), and let me know if I was accepted in. Thankfully they called me back that very same late afternoon that I was accepted in and would start August 27 or 28 (don’t mind me, I got to check to make sure because my memory sucks.) That’s all for this episode of my personal drama to keep it as neutral as possible. Enjoy the Summer!!! I know I will try to!
