Some thoughts to think about.
Many times I can not even talk to my best friends and family about things that are happening or have been happening in my life, simply because it will change their view on people and that includes myself. Not because I am ashamed of them or because they are secrets. I’m hiding things and keeping things to myself because others are involved in these things and that I am not sure they can understand them. To be judged because of those things by people that don’t understand the impact of these things on my life or others life’s is not something I seek for either.. It makes one feel very lonely not being able to be who you are because you want to and even have to protect yourself and others. A simply and sincere how are you doing, I often can not answer honestly for this reason.. Its a difficult choice to make because it feels like betrayal not to be honest and which makes it also hard to be real friends or close to people. So I most times keep a distance just so I don’t have to lie. One reason why I can not always blog when I wish I could and why I have not blogged for a long time. Since my blog is for me to express myself which I feel often blocked in. Either by myself, circumstances, friends or family.
