{"id":2832,"date":"2019-04-30T02:57:48","date_gmt":"2019-04-30T01:57:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/?p=2832"},"modified":"2019-04-30T04:29:31","modified_gmt":"2019-04-30T03:29:31","slug":"feeling-invisible","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/?p=2832","title":{"rendered":"Feeling invisible"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Lately, I&#8217;m starting to feel invisible again and that makes me want to disappear, loneliness starts creeping up on me and  I am scared for that depression that&#8217;s been lurking around trying to get a hold on me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Being too strong for too long can cause depression but what other choice do I have? I have no other choice then be strong. Yes, I drop down from time to time but I can&#8217;t stay there, I got to get up again cause no one else is going to do it for me. So I keep picking myself up and I&#8217;m trying to find things to distract me and silence the thoughts in my head but I&#8217;m losing patience and I&#8217;m becoming moody which doesn&#8217;t help anything at all. ugh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>People letting me down not doing what they say they do. I wish I had people in my life I could truly depend on that they do what they say. When I think back I never really had that. All I ever really had was myself. Maybe this is why it&#8217;s so important for me to do what I say n be reliable almost at all cost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I am tired,  I want to let go n take a break not having to worry about anything. My last little break was almost 2 years ago to get hit by major depression and a lot of stress right after. I want to have energy and be able to do things. I feel like a phone battery that never is put down long enough to fully recharge an all the time almost runs empty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/30689432-stick-figure-running-powerless-and-empty-battery-1024x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-2833\" width=\"332\" height=\"332\" srcset=\"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/30689432-stick-figure-running-powerless-and-empty-battery-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/30689432-stick-figure-running-powerless-and-empty-battery-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/30689432-stick-figure-running-powerless-and-empty-battery-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/30689432-stick-figure-running-powerless-and-empty-battery-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/30689432-stick-figure-running-powerless-and-empty-battery.jpg 1300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 332px) 100vw, 332px\" \/><\/figure><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Lately, I&#8217;m starting to feel invisible again and that makes me want to disappear, loneliness starts creeping up on me and I am scared for that depression that&#8217;s been lurking around trying to get a hold on me. Being too strong for too long can cause depression but what other choice do I have? I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2832","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-news"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2832","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2832"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2832\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2836,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2832\/revisions\/2836"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2832"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2832"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2832"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}