There is a monster inside of me<\/p>\n
There is a monster inside of me
\nIt’s a monster and its called C-PTSD
\nEvery so often, it runs rampage and hurts me inside out
\nI try to ignore it, contain it, and fight it but its too loud
\nToo often it brings me to my knees and finally I break down
\nIt continues, its still not done until I emotionally drown
\nFinally being able to break free from the pain
\nYou would think it’s over but here comes the shame
\nI’m ashamed for all the confusion and my tears,
\nI’m ashamed for my pain, my anger, and my fears,
\nI am ashamed and honestly most of all I want to hide
\nBut I can’t, I have to be strong and continue my fight
\nI see how it hurts you too when it’s not even your fault
\nThat refueled the monster who then hits me with another assault
\nI try not to break down again and fight with all my strength
\nI fight till I win, I fight till the bitter end
\nI am emotionally exhausted and feel beaten when its finally done
\nOnce again I came through it but I don’t feel like I have won.
\nI keep working on building my strength and trying to heal
\nIt starts with understanding and controlling my reactions to what I feel
\nIt’s a long run, exhausting and hard but I refuse to give up on me
\nI am worth it and one day I shall win, you will see.<\/p>\n
D.S. 1:49 PM March 4, 2018<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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