{"id":1722,"date":"2004-01-01T16:00:24","date_gmt":"2004-01-01T15:00:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.whisperedwords.nl\/?p=1722"},"modified":"2004-01-01T16:00:24","modified_gmt":"2004-01-01T15:00:24","slug":"happy-new-year-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/?p=1722","title":{"rendered":"Happy New Year"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Happy New year,<\/p>\n<p>January first, thoughts of wishes, dreams and the future&#8230;<br \/>\nCant help it, but my past feels like a join with a suture.<br \/>\nThe marks, almost not visible at all, almost dont show&#8230;<br \/>\nOnly very few people really understand and know,<br \/>\nThat I feel awkward, The smile on my face, its not real.<br \/>\nNervous, afraid, weak and small is how I feel.<br \/>\nI don&#8217;t want to run and hide, but, am I ready to fight?<br \/>\nThe grip of frightening is holding me so awful tight.<br \/>\nCan I win the battle and truly be free?<br \/>\nOr will this always be a part of me?<br \/>\nI wonder if I know the answer and just refuse to accept.<br \/>\nThat I am indeed that weak and incapable to adept.<br \/>\nAnger takes part of me, its all just not fair.<br \/>\nWhy cant I just stand up to breath in the fresh new years air,<br \/>\nReady for what will come, might come and what I want to come.<br \/>\nWhy cant I just be strong and kick this aweful feeling goodbye!<br \/>\nIts just not fair, makes me so angry, cause it hurts,<br \/>\nyet I still refuse to cry.<\/p>\n<p>january 1st 2004 4:00 pm<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Happy New year, January first, thoughts of wishes, dreams and the future&#8230; Cant help it, but my past feels like a join with a suture. The marks, almost not visible at all, almost dont show&#8230; Only very few people really understand and know, That I feel awkward, The smile on my face, its not real. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1722","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-news"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1722"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1722"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1722"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/whisperedwords.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1722"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}